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Life and love and why [Jul. 26th, 2009|10:44 pm]
Excellent lyrics by Switchfoot

Life and love and why
Child, adult, then die
All of your hoping
And all of your searching
For what?
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Take away from me
This monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's
Not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Could it be this?
Could this be bliss?
Could it be all that
I ever had missed?
Could it be true?
Can life be new?
And can I be used?
Can I be used?

Give me a reason
For life and for death
A reason for drowning
While I hold my breath
Something to laugh at
A reason to cry
With everyone hopeless
And hoping for something
To hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for

Could it be true?
Can life be new?
Could it be all that I am
Is in You?
Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Can it be You?
Can it be You?
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Rearview mirror [Jul. 22nd, 2009|10:40 pm]
[Current Mood |artistic]

Here's some poetry that I wrote in college:

The turn of the ignition brings a sudden roar
Much like a baby’s cry as the stork enters the door
Mirrors are checked with great anticipation
Of the journey’s potential trials, tribulation,
And compromising situations.

Riding the straight and narrow, which lies ahead
Brings with it the power to reminisce
Of the carefree days of youth, which one wishes were not dead
Espousing, very simply, ignorance is bliss!

The exit is quickly approaching
Goodbye straight and narrow!
Only the mirror possesses your being.

Southward is the direction to which I must go
With curves and turns and uncertainty
Of what this road has yet to show
The confusion of growth, one only prays for its brevity!

The window pushes me to say hello
While the mirror bids me to say, “Fellow,
You are soon gone from my sight.”
Can someone remove me from this blight?
Of seeing it coming and seeing it going, but having no present in which to delight

Yield, stop, start
The school approaches
The journey is done
As fast as a childhood, as recalled by its bearer
Long forgotten, except by the mirror
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Potential exposed [Jul. 21st, 2009|12:29 am]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |"This can't be good" - NeYo]

Just am reading through a series on "unlocking potential" and got to thinking about just that... potential. Websters defines it as "capable of being or becoming", many give it credence when evaluating a job candidate or a possible love interest. Truth be told, as complex creatures we are laden with potential. Left to our own devices any one of us has the potential to be the very worst and also the very best. Potential looks at the hope that guides us through our existence; looking to the possible rather than the actual. I praise God for everyday bringing that which is possible (sometimes improbable) to fruition.
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Isn't it amazing [Mar. 25th, 2009|03:03 am]
Isn't it amazing that when life hands you the proverbial kick in the pants, that the grace and love of the Lord shines ever so brightly in our line of sight? Not because that shining ever wavers or is contingent on the events of the day, but because those "kicks in the pants" help to refocus us on what really is important in this life. Humility truly is underrated!
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So you're saying you're a Christian... [Aug. 20th, 2008|01:57 am]
So you meet an amazing person, hit it off on everything; the topic of faith comes up and you talk about your faith in Christ, "So you're a Christian? Oh..." Or back in Peace Corps when I had someone come out to me, they were terrified that I would completely disown them as a friend and cut communication simply because of my faith. What images are conjured up when someone tells you they are a Christian? I suppose it's possible you can picture people with angry faces toting signs reading "God hates fags", it's possible you can picture hooded men lighting crosses, it's possible you can picture people shouting judgments at those going to neighborhood abortion clinics. When did we get to the point where there are more negative images conjured up in the minds of people when they hear "Christian" than positives? Suppose it has always been. Now enter 2008 in the USA... I don't believe Jesus would be exactly pleased with the direction of the Church; where often times the very people the Lord would spend His time with (should He be back on the earth today)feel the least welcomed by Christians. Where did our love go...
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Update [Mar. 18th, 2008|03:33 am]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]
[Current Music |"The Coolest" - Lupe Fiasco]

To say it's been ages since I've updated would be the understatement of the century. Life is good. Work is good. I can't complain. The Lord never ceases to amaze me with His love, forgiveness, peace, hope, strength... On the relationship front, things are going well also. I've been talking to someone for some time and things are growing. Truly, I have started to wonder if I have ever really been in love. I mean, I have had a long-term relationship before (3 years to be exact) but to say that was love... eh, would be a stretch. I suppose back then I'd say I had a rather perverted view of love. I believed it was 95% committment, thus, I was was drained, tired and miserable. So, for the first time in my life, I may be falling in love... it's interesting. I'm not rushing anything and nothing is official as of yet, but we'll see. It's all in His hands.
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Family Reunion [Dec. 1st, 2006|05:03 am]
[Current Music |"It's Okay" (One Blood) - The Game]

"Welcome to Dakar. Please remain in your seats until the seat belt sign light is turned off." These words reached my ears as I was at the T minus 15 minute mark of meeting my Dad and brothers for the first time. As I collected my bags I was all about walking with determination as there was so much commotion in the terminal. I surveyed the crowd awaiting the arriving passengers quickly and then made my way over to the information desk in efforts to call my Dad in case he wasn't already there. As I was there a young tall guy walks over to me with a sign "Gavin M. Dia", following this were the words, "I'm your brother Elimane". My thoughts... wow this is my brother! As I hugged him a group of folks came our way. Another one saying, "I'm your brother", another "I'm your cousin", and then, "I'm your father." With those words I was standing face to face with my father; a man I truly resembled, a man whom I barely knew... a man I was meeting for the first time. After brief introductions we headed toward my aunt's house and as I was in the car, I sat in disbelief - here I was sitting in a car with my Dad and two of my brothers... pinch me now, this can't be real. That was how it all started and the 12 days I spent in Senegal with my family will never be forgotten. I absolutely loved my time there. I had about 5 days of just chillin' with my Dad in the city of St. Louis (where he works and lives) and had a great time connecting. Like a sponge I was soaking up as much as I could about the half(or perhaps more) of my heritage and the man that is my father. In the process, I began learning Wolof, the most spoken language in Senegal. For you Swaziland PCVs, wouldn't you know that "No problem" and "It is true" were some of the very first words I learned! Next on my list of languages I'd like to learn is Pular as it is the language of the Pular and that is what my family is. After chillin' with Dad, I went to stay with my 3 brothers and cousins in Dakar for the rest of my stay. You may not believe it but out of my Dad and 3 brothers I am the shortest! Never had I felt short in my life, that is, until I was standing next to the aforementioned people. Lamine is my oldest bro (28)6'6" and currently is doing is residency as he just finished medical school. Elimane is the next (23)6'5". Thierno (20)6'8", the youngest and tallest in the family. It was incredible being with this side of the family I had never met before. An only child who had acquired 3 brothers and couldn't be happier about it. We went around Dakar together, clubbed, sang, and talked about anything and everything. I came in to this trip only seeing it as a trip to meet my father, and came out of it finding a part of myself, my roots, my family.
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Trip undate and Cape Town love [Nov. 14th, 2006|07:10 am]
"There are 10 ways to leave your lover this weekend but only 4 ways to exit this plane." It is with those words of wisdom from a flight attendant that I began my Cape Town adventure. This place is amazing! Lively everywhere and various times of the night/day, people so laid back you wonder if anything would bother them, and sights to die for! Oh, and penguins... yes, you read correctly, penguins! Next stop is Joburg and then Thursday I will be in Senegal to meet my Dad for the first time in my life... da da da. Peace
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So now we come... [Nov. 2nd, 2006|01:39 pm]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

To the end of the road... Here I am in my last day at site, last week in Swaziland, at the end of the road of my Peace Corps service. The time as moved so quickly! I can still vividly remember meeting my fellow volunteers in Philly for Staging and everything that followed. It's amazing. Well, going to Cape Town on the 10th-14th. That should be good fun. Excited for good clubs, seeing Robben Island, penguins and wine tasting! Also heard that it is pretty well integrated so that's certainly good. After that trip I head to Senegal to meet my Dad for the first time in my life. I'm definitely excited to meet him, my three brothers and the rest of the fam and learn more about the culture and my roots (a little over half of them anyway). One thing I never would have anticipated when I signed up for Peace Corps, is the growth and the wealth of taxing experiences. After Senegal I head back home to the States for the Christmas shoppin' rush month - otherwise known as December. As much as you may think I'd be disgusted by such commercialism after having lived in an poor southern African village for two years, I think I'd get a kick out of it.
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Imagine... [Aug. 29th, 2006|02:26 pm]
Imagine a world with virtually no crime, a world in which prolonged "happiness" is a main goal and can be achieved for most, a world without aging and disease and all the sex you could ask for... You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one... k, sorry, getting carried away. Well, just re-read Brave New World by Huxley and enjoyed it thoroughly. The futuristic world Huxley paints is fitted with all of the aforementioned accoutrements. Many of these things can only be seen as ideal: no disease, happiness on command (with the help of a drug which has no negative side effects), no aging, and the sex. Although many may dream of such a world, Huxley's world clearly shows us that there is no depth to life when all "bad" things are prevented/avoided. Pain is necessary and I'd say, is a integral part of life. What good is happiness if it takes just a pill to achieve it? Also, there is fruit to aging and wisdom acquired through the process. Lastly, in a world where there are no sexual inhibitions and promiscuity is strongly recommended - we can all find ourselves trapped in an infancy stage of intimacy; never achieving real depth in our romantic relationships.
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